I wonder what's it like to have it all..
9:23 PM - Thursday, July 23, 2009
I've been listening to songs by Mitchel Musso, he's really quite good, still unpolished, but he can only get better! =D I'm looking foward to his next album.. =) My favourite track on his current album is "The In Crowd", go take a look!
Alright, so tonight for some weird reason, I don't have homework, and I really honestly have asked around for any homework. And its OFFICIAL! I actually don't have homework today!! =D People, please go buy 4D, its so unusual.. hahahaha..
Anyway, because I don't have homework, I was doing some thinking.. (YES I DO THINK, contrary to what some may believe.)
What is it like to have it all?? I mean seriously, what is it like to go to school everyday not worrying about whether you've completed all your homework? Not to have to worry about what people think about you, not to have to worry about your studies, not to have to worry about your life?
I wish the world wasn't so modern actually, like Amanda said, it brings voyeurism to a whole new level. Everyone is watching your next move. Sometimes I think its actually very horrible to be a celebrity, but then again, they have it all. They seem to be able to take the pressure, especially those who DO have it all.
How do you handle that kind of pressure? How long more before they crack? These are the exact kinds of questions we normal people are asking ourselves, and we make bets and guesses on when exactly they will crack. Which actually leads to more attention on them, further speeding up the cracking process. Its a bloody vicious cycle.
And so, in knowing this, why do we still do it? So many people have lost their lives, or at least have had it ruined/wrecked because of this constant attention. Heath Ledger, Michael Jackson, Lindsay Lohan, Hilary Duff, Britney Spears and countless others. How many more do we want to see? Everytime there is a death or a scandal, we say that the person couldn't take the pressure, and we say it as if its a bad thing. We mourn them and yet we don't solve the problem at the root.
Well, you know what, I think I like not having it all. =)
Welfare... My life, my position, my heart.. =)
6:25 PM - Sunday, July 19, 2009
Let's get away from depressing posts shall we? But then again, exam results are always depressing, so no one can blame me for that...
Remember me saying I screwed up the ISAC interview? Well, I sort of did. lols.. As in, I applied for Sec-Gen and Deputy Sec-Gen. I didn't get it but hey, I'm actually happy! =) Those posts went to much more deserving people ---> Jia Yi and Anthea. =D Clara is Secretary, Events Directors 1 and 2 are Eustance and Zhi Ming. Corporate Relations is Jiawen and I'm the Head of Welfare. =) I'm totally much happier in this role, it has less responsibilities, which allows me to focus on my schoolwork more and God knows I need to be. I'm not exactly the most disciplined person in the whole wide world after all. And and this role allows me to merge my dream worlds of CSC and ISAC together!! I get to plan CIP for ISAC =D Me happy!! The seniors totally made a great decision in the choice of this year's new comm. I think we're all totally fitted to our roles and we're gonna do a great job! =))
Now that we've taken over, we've got to handle the handover ceremony and DUNMUN.. =)) I shan't say much here because the details are "supposed" to be secret.. LOLS.. We'll see how it goes. Oh and just a random point here, I was surprised at how many Tao Nan people are in the comm! like 5 out of 7 lor!! =D So cool, it's totally a Tao Nan reunion!! =)))
School hasn't been so bad so far, we've only been going through CT papers. I'm expecting it to pick up pace soon though. Oh, I got accepted for the Global Youth Forum, and I've decided to go for it, which means I'm gonna miss one week of school.. -.- From the 29th of July to the 3rd of August, which according to Sihui is just 4 school days! But as I kindly reminded her, we only have 5 school days a week, so thats 4 out of 5... Which frankly, is a lot.. lols.. SHe's a facilitator for the Forum which means I'll be missing school together with her.. =)) Hopefully when I come back I can catch up cos' promos are in 9 weeks time.. Just after September Hols.. EEK!!
Hahaha, on the bright side, that means when Alicia comes back, I'll have finished exams!! =)) Leaving me perfectly free to go out with her =D
If you see my girl
Just tell her I miss her smile
Tell her I'm counting the minutes
Gonna see her in a little while
Oh, oh, oh, oh
And tell her I love her
Ahhh, I miss you Alicia Ho!! October can't come fast enough! =D
Jigsaws no more; Fragmented soul
10:32 PM - Wednesday, July 15, 2009
I was right. I always say I'm right, and normally I like being so. But hey, there are always exceptions to the rule.
Today was a horrible day as well. More horrible than yesterday if I may offer my expert opinion.
I walked out of the house running about 5 minutes late. The skies were starting to get gray and cloudy, but I figured the clouds were more towards the paya lebar side, I was walking towards Parkway. I thought I would be fine. I was wrong. The clouds started getting blown by the wind towards the Parkway side and it started to rain as I got into the bus. Then when I reached the bus stop and pulled out my umbrella, the rain had started to get ridiculously heavy. I met Suat along the way and she insisted on walking by the front gate way, which resulted in both of us getting RIDICULOUSLY wet and soaked right through. And I lived with wet feet, wet socks and wet shoes for the rest of the day. When I got home, my feet were scarily white and they looked so wrinkled.
I got back my Lit results even before flag raising. It's my first U. Looks like the storm really set the mood for the entire day. I really don't want to think about Lit, it's horrible and I never want to get that kind of grades again. The problem is, with other subjects, I can say I'll study harder and remember my content. For Lit, I know my content but can't analyse to save my ass. How do you teach someone to analyse? I hope Ms Ng has an answer to that.
Then it was PE. Because of the rain, we couldn't go to the tennis courts to play tennis. Dang. In the end we were stuck in the ISH with every other class having PE. Squashed to one corner and trying to control a tennis ball. My right forearm muscle is still aching like mad ----> More evidence of my utter unfitness and horribly tensed muscles. All in all, a horrible morning.
Then it was Geog. I now officially hate Melvyn Tan. Seriously, he contradicts himself BIG TIME. First tell us that models aren't in our syllabus for exams, then he keeps referring to them nonstop. And no one has a clue what the heck model he is referring to. What a FIRST CLASS IDIOT.
During the free period between Geog and Civics, I went nuts with Yuesing. Thank God for that woman, she keeps me sane. I know that statement alone sounds insane. But I love hanging out with her, she destresses me. We sang songs like lunatics and I think the teachers (including Ms Lin) sitting in the table in front of us must have thought we were crazy. Who cares? I really released all the pent-up emotions during that time.
Civics wasn't all that bad. Although we got back Geog, well, at least I passed. Not that well , but at least still D. So as of now, my grades are DEBUD. How brilliant. URGH..
If you thought that was the worst. There's more. ISAC interview. I swear I screwed it up. I definitely pissed off Steffi, cos' I interrupted her a few times. I apologize for that but sometimes I can't help it. It's like an instinct, a knee-jerk reaction to someone talking. It's also a annoying thing that I need to conquer. And why do I get the feeling I pissed her off wayy earlier than today? I don't know exactly what I did, but in anycase, I apologise. Steffi, I'm sorry if I did anything that pissed you off and whatever it is, it's probably one of my many faults which I'm trying to correct. During the individual interview, it was probably more disastrous. Heck I don't want to talk about it. The only funny thing was that all of us were trying to make Clara the Sec-Gen.. But she doesn't want the post!! Weird right? She's perfect for it. Oh well, we figured in the end that there was no sense in forcing her and thus Zhi Ming clarified by saying that although Clara would be perfect for the post, she doesn't want it. Thus.... bla bla bla.
And that was the horrible ending to a horrible day. I'm hoping against hope that tomorrow will be better. The only bright spot I can see tomorrow is seeing Mrs Bok. We're going to Kallang Leisure Park to see her! On another more gloomy note, there's EOM due on Friday and I have not started. Whee YAY WHAT FUN..
Now's the time to let the whole world know,
You can shine bright but still keep it real.
Jumbled Jigsaws
9:43 PM - Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Ok, I realise I totally owe a hell lot of posts.. Like
1. ASEAN Day 3
2. ASEAN Day 4
3. Rest of June Hols
4. CTs
5. HBL
6. ASEAN Outing
But But But, when I find time to talk about it, I promise I will. This post is just about today, the highly freakishly disastrous today. Today, I got back GP, Maths and Econs.
Quite varied really. And I don't know what to think, because I know I should be doing better, and yet all the teachers say that this is super normal. And yet when I look at other people, my friends, like say DH.. He's doing way way better than me. Then again, I have to say that his in-class attitude is WAYY better than mine. And I'm happy for him. =)
GP -----> I'm top of the class for Comprehension, but died for Essay, THUS D.
Econs -----> Scraped double digits for both, according to our new teacher Mr Harry Thiew, that's not bad, considering the standard of my class. Is our class really that bad? >.< ANYWAY, I GOT E.
Maths -----> After I finished the paper, I figured if I was lucky I would get 51 out of 70. Which is an A. Apparently, I was not that lucky. Managed a B.
After meeting Harry Thiew, I think I have a shot at salvaging my econs, my maths, with a little more hard work should get there too. GP, well, I might actually have to start writing essays. GRAH. Well, this has been a wake-up call (and I suspect tmr will be worse), so I'll have to start putting in more effort. On a side note, I think I'm gonna enjoy having Harry Thiew as an Econs teacher and a co-Civics Tutor! =))
On the other hand, I can't say the same for Melvyn Tan. I hate his notes and his lectures. I think his tutorials are slightly better. He looks like the Incredible Hulk, but sounds like Spongebob Squarepants with more comfortable pants, if you get my meaning. He may be very experienced but I don't like his style.
AND NO ONE GETS AWAY WITH DISSING MICKEY MOUSE, NO ONE!!!
Of course, I have to admit, I really really liked Mrs Bok, and this could all be due to some sense of loyalty to her and utter biasness. But he only came in now, and he better be prepared for this kind of treatment. He's gonna have to get on my good side. I'm a rebel, but I toned it down because I loved Mrs Bok, and I respected her. So its Melvyn Tan's turn to earn that respect. And good luck to him if he doesn't manage to do so, cos'
HELL HATH NO FURY LIKE A WOMAN SCORNED. =)
Tomorrow I'm getting back Geog and Lit. Gonna die like never before. >.<
Tomorrow is also the ISAC interview, I want to get the comm position, but I also know I'm in no state to go for it. Hopefully I can pull myself together. I NEED TO. ISAC is gonna be the one thing that keeps me going to school.
So Let's Go.
ASEAN Summit Day 2
5:00 PM - Tuesday, July 7, 2009
How should I do this? Blog in chronological order? Or just do whatever comes to mind first? Well, you know what, either way, ASEAN is the obvious choice. Alright, so let's pick up where I left off. In other words, I should be doing ASEAN Summit Day 2... Here goes!!
Day 2 ----> I woke up late!! Must have been too tired the day before, so I couldn't make it to the hostel on time in anycase. Mom sent me in the end and I reached school JUST on time. =P
Day 2 was much much better in terms of committee sessions, everyone had properly warmed up and they had worked really really hard (until 2am I heard) on the OT Resolution Paper.. They spammed the forum, kudos to Janice, Matt and Michelle for getting the ball rolling! Amanda thanks for being the middleman/middlewoman, passing the message between the chairs and the delegates! I know it was irritating sometimes but haha, who asked you to be in my council? (Oh wait, I did.. =D ) So the resolution paper was still unpolished and the 2nd day of committee sessions was all about refining and making it into a paper worth debating at the plenary sessions. Still, I enjoyed the 2nd day much more because everyone was more active, everyone talked and there was a lot more going on.
Oh and haha, the ASEAN Times came out!! Super interesting and I think the delegates enjoyed reading about it, I remember there was an exclusive interview with Nabil on his country's view of OT.. =D Great job by Yuxin, Candice and Stephanie!! =)) This day was a bit more slack, there was plenty of time to hang with the delegates and talk to them, cos there was lunch first before the Crisis session.
Hahaha, there was a lot of admin related stuff to do though! We had to collect the press reports and bring the resolution paper to the admin room for printing and all. I remember there was some insane scrambling to look for Steffi's thumbdrive cap or something like that hahahaha.. In anycase, only the chairs were needed at the Crisis session, I was supposedly on duty to pass notes around but there were more than enough people there, so I ended up being back at the admin room, erm, Slacking? =P
Well, not entirely slacking, I just kicked off my incredibly uncomfortable court shoes, and helped with the editing of the resolution papers =D Formatting and spell check and the like, it was fun seeing Ms Aw tear her hair out in frustration over the bad phrasing in what I think is the Science and Tech council's paper. And I was the friendly chocolate crazy person, I felt like the Easter Bunny! =D IN a good way that is. I happily skipped to the canteen and bought Kit Kat, and when I came back, everyone wanted, hahaha, lols. So I went again, and bought again. And I came back and they STILL wanted more. So I went again. I must have the singular biggest buyer of Kit Kat and water that day. Uncle must love me by now. =D I think I bought like 13 Kit Kats? Gosh, come to think of it, thats a lot. o.O
Ok, so after that, I forgot why but someone started playing Bejewelled Blitz on Facebook and soon everyone grabbed a com and started playing also! Grrr at Denise for taking top spot.. LOL. In the end, by the time Crisis finally ended and Rebecca, Junwei, Sam and all the chairs were coming back to the Admin Room for debrief, I was so bored I was playing UNO on facebook, which in case you didn't know is incredibly slow and its a live game.
Debrief was ok, not so much of a bitch fest really cos we were all super super tired. It was exhausting. Although it didn't seem like much to do, I mean, simply deciding Best Delegate and Best Delegation was torturous. We argued for so long whether it was to be Russia or France! When I say forever, I literally mean forever. We were worried whether the delegates would see us as being biased if we awarded the prize to France, some councils France did better and some councils France did worse. The problem was the the judging criteria for the award was Committee Sessions - 50% and Crisis Session - 50%. Russia and France were evenly matched! Oh boy, in the end we gave up and decided to make it a tie. Gosh, I don't even want to go into details of what happened AFTER that. It was insane, just to give you a hint, it had to do with the actual prizes. LOLS.
Anyway, that was the end of Day 2, and I'd never looked forward to my bed that badly. hahaha..
Day 3 coming up!!
P.S. I'm gonna do a photos only post soon!
Before the important postings... Comes..
4:46 PM
They are damn SEXAY right?? (total dominatrix!!)
ALICIA HO
JIAYOU FOR YOUR EXAMS!!
P.S. I want your boots!!!
Cos Sometimes My Best Just Ain't Good Enough...
10:17 PM - Thursday, July 2, 2009
I'll do my best, heck I've done my best this past few days.. If that still ain't good enough, then well, that just reflects how much of a student I am right?
Gods, just had depressing papers and news from people like Ms Teo "GP was quite horribly done to be honest".. =/
Thank goodness for Maths which totally just saved my life and will be the one decent 见得了光 grade on my report card which incidentally is coming out just BEFORE Parent-Teacher Meeting. NOW HOW EVIL IS THAT!!!! =((((
Tmr is Literature Paper 2, testing us on Christine Suchen-Lim's Fistful of Colours and one poem that we have to link to Post-Colonial Literature. One essay, one poem. All we have left to redeem ourselves. Let's do it. Cos we have to.
I was listening to one of my favourite songs of all time: 绝对无敌 by NESE. The lyrics in there really inspire people to keep going and I love his voice!! Half chinese and half english, truly a mix. How poignant for tmr's Lit paper where the only thing you can talk about Post-Colonial Lit is mixed/conflicted identity.
Here are some lyrics from the song that I think are appropriate for the occasion:
Ey yo this game of life is one big struggle
We gotta hustle just to make it everyday
and to find ourselves a way
to fight the fears we facin
and grab those dreams we chasin
cuz there ain't no competition
when we rise to the occasion, c'mon
Well, I told you he raps in Chinese and English!! hahaha, he is 100% bonafide star man!!
So let's go fight those fears and grab those dreams, hell, we'll go out there and give our best and blow the competition away!!
To everyone out there with papers to come (Alicia!! This includes you, STUDY HARD ALRIGHT!!), Good Luck and Have Fun!! =))
P.S. ICE AGE 3 outing after the paper tmr?? =))))
Quickie.. =D
10:31 PM - Wednesday, July 1, 2009
I'm totally gonna start posting soon, properly at least, don't be surprised if I post like 7 times in one day!! There's so much to talk about!!
But but, tempted as I am, there is STILL the Lit Paper 2 on Friday, so I have to persevere and persist, if not, I'm a GONER.. =/
lols, anyway, quickie quotes from this insane crazy week!!
Top of my head: To-to-to-To Murder Me!!
Seconds the motion of: Lit is confirm plus chop fail already!!
(Richard the) Third: Minister of hell, bottled spider, bear, the winter of our discontent
Four the last time: Samantha doesn't need hints! DON'T INSULT HER!!
(Hi) 5: Maths is the only thing I'm confident about!~~
Hehehe, alright that's all I can think of for now, really really tired, my right arm is aching so badly!!
JIAYOU to everyone else still having exams, we can overcome this!! =))
P.S. Alicia Ho I miss you so badly, and I really wanna talk to you!! When oh when can I see you again?? =/
P.P.S. 11th July outing with AHDC!! Love you guys!! Are we having lunch together?? Since Steffi can only make it for lunch.. tsk that busy woman.. =D