FREAK
9:29 PM - Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Freakishly
Really
Effing
Annoying
Kaleidoscope
Yups, today was some hell of a day. First of all, I woke up knowing that it was Geog exam today. Which just automatically spells doom. I wish Bokkie was teaching us, would have felt more secure. Just knowing she was there. (Gods I sound like a star-crossed lover... ._.)
Then on the way to school, my whole freaking bottle leaked, causing everything and I mean everything, in my bag to get wet. For that matter, everything is still downstairs drying off. -_- My Geog notes, which I seriously very painstakingly compiled, the first major effort I've ever put into my work for the first time, got wet. I'm totally gonna buy non-soluble ink from now on. FML. It was smudged and some of the ink had dissolved, my notes were basically unreadable. There goes my last minute studying plans. The book that I had borrowed from the library, wet to the core. Still outside drying, and its still wet. Brilliance. My spare phone batteries, which thank the heavens still work. My pencil case, which still happens to be oozing water. -___- My wallet, which I'm really quite depressed over, because so many nice things were in there, most important of which was the note that Kent wrote me, it's the freaking original and I can never get another one back if it's gone, I'm hoping really hard that I can get it back dry enough, if I have to recopy the words, I will. But it won't be the same.
Then was the Geog exam which to tell the truth wasn't that fantastic. NTW syndrome again. I think it's a chronic illness now. Like my need to acronymise everything.
And of course, the thing that is really bugging me now is that my GC also got wet, which is sooo not funny, what with the Maths exam tmr. YES, FREAKING TMR. In the morning at like 830. I'm soooo pissed off right now. Shan't rant here, need to rant at someone human. lols. In the end, I'm gonna borrow from Maths department now, thanks so much Mrs Tcheau, you are seriously the nicest and best teacher ever! =) And Jerome has happily dismantled my GC, although how I do not know, since I spent like 20 whole minutes trying to open the screws that secure the screen section, it's at some goddamn weird angle, see for yourself. Hopefully he can fix it. Sigh, but I shall have to rely on Mrs Tcheau for now.
And I've no problem with using spare calculators for now, only thing I'm worried about? If you give me TI now.. I might not know how to use it. And that's not a nice prospect either is it?
WOOOO FML!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!
9:00 PM - Friday, September 25, 2009
All my buddies, put your hands up!If you hated it then you should walked out of it. (X3)
TOTALLY.
This past 2 days have been GP and Econs. Both were bad, BIG TIME BAD. It brings to mind Will Smith's Bad Boys song? Like "bad boys bad boys, whatcha gonna do when we come for you.." Change that to paper won't you?
Wonderful, Lit early in the morning, Maths early in the morning, Geog early in the morning and then last Lit paper in the afternoon. SIANZZZ..
Why do they have to put the Lit paper as the last paper?? It's always the most depressing paper and I have no intentions of spending my last day of exams depressed. We're supposed to be happy and euphoric after the last paper and yet we just sit around feeling sorry for ourselves!! Did you hear that you exam-timetabling committee?? Before you get complaints about harming the students' welfare, stop putting Lit as the last paper!!!
T_T
11:10 PM - Wednesday, September 23, 2009
There's only so many tears that you can cry
Before it drains the light right from your eyes.
Lucky I haven't really started yet. But I will.. soon.
In the meantime, I'm counting on several things to make me happy. I'm trying.
Updated
6:22 PM - Sunday, September 20, 2009
Just a random announcement that I've updated all the random stuff in the other bars. Lols.
Oh and btw, the new Addictionary word is out!! (3rd blue bar people!)
Afterthought
5:16 PM
Speaking of equality and rights for all..
Why is it that guys are allowed to talk dirty, and everyone will just shrug it off, maybe reproach them a bit, but generally just accept it whereas girls are frowned upon and considered disgusting if they do the exact same thing?
I am of course directing this at some people, you know who you are. Don't discriminate man!
Like a Boy
12:03 AM
What if I?...Had a thing on the side?
Made ya cry?
Would the rules change up?...
Or would they still apply?...
If I played you like a toy?...
Sometimes I wish I could act like a boy
See that's the thing, guys have it way too easy, and seriously, they've been calling the shots since time eternal.. It's time for women to hit back!
THIS IS OUR ERA!! =))
One thing I have to be clear about is that I'm not necessarily a feminist, I agree that men are useful in their own ways but I still think females deserve more rights! =D And I think that humanity in general needs to be more forgiving and give equal rights to everyone, regardless of who they are, what they are and what they do or what they believe in.
Whether in love or life, men have always been one up over us females, they cheat on us, bring us grief, they love us one minute and love someone else the next. Hell, I've heard stories of this girl who loved a guy, but came home on day and found him in bed with another GUY. Aren't guys just the worst?! I mean, I've got nothing against gays, but it's horrible to play a woman like that.
Speaking of gays (and lesbians), I've been thinking about the fascination and merits and demerits of these orientations. From a purely logical perspective, the main issue people have with them is that they're weird/gross/disgusting/unnatural and that it's not right because there is no way for reproduction to take place in that relationship.
Well, I'm gonna refute that. Gays and lesbians are not gross/disgusting/weird/unnatural. There is nothing unnatural or gross or disgusting or weird about love is there? I believe that as long as they love each other, they make each other happy, then what's wrong? Honestly, gay or lesbian relationships is like living with your best friend of the same sex. You understand each other perfectly, there is none of the "oh gosh the female mind is so complicated and vice versa for the females" kind of thing. For girls, you can go shopping together, you can exchange clothes, you can share shoes if that's what matters to you.. For guys, you can hit the bars together, play sports together, it's like a bromance taken to another level.. Look at Brokeback Mountain and you'll know what I mean, they understand each other, heck, they loved each other and they made each other happy. You wanna dispute that?
If they made each other as happy as this:
Would you still protest against them? They are just as law-abiding as any of us, they're not breaking the law, they're not doing anything immoral. Before the judge ruled on California Proposition 8, when asked whether they would consider marriage, they replied that they had done so many times, but would not do it until it was legal. Hours after the judge ruled that it was legal, Ellen announced on her talk show that they would be getting married, all the more special because Portia was in the audience. This conviction that they wanted to spend the rest of their lives together, whether married or not, is special and something that can be and should be made into a fairytale. =) This has nothing to do with religion and whether its not "holy" or something, love does not discriminate!
And not forgetting the guys, we have our very own Sir Elton John and David Furnish.
Can you bear to break this kind of relationship up? If you didn't know they were gay or whatever, if Elton John was a girl, honestly, would you be protesting? They are obviously happy together and in love. Everything you know about love is that it's meant to be, it's your destiny, love cannot be forced, love can transcend everything and that love is something that should be cherished and respected. So these two couples are in love, they went through so much turmoil to be together, nobody is forcing them to love each other, they have overcome the protests of the conservative society, overcome the media scrutiny and they cherish and respect each other. Who are you to come and say that what they are doing is wrong?
The world population is now at close to 7 billion and we're projected to hit 12 billion in a couple of decades. If you divide the world resources among our total number of people, its just about enough. Why do we need more people in the world? In fact, I think that the soft approach version of China's "One-Child" policy should be a campaign to make everyone a homosexual. No kids, brilliant solution isn't it? As to the whole reproduction not happening in homosexual relationships thing, I say that that's not the point, you're just using that because they're homosexual. I don't see you protesting against couples that are infertile? Or couples who don't want children? All you protesters out there are just biased, sexist idiots. =)
Also, homosexual couples who want kids can adopt. They are so many orphaned children out there. And instead of giving them a family, we insist on having our own. The more homosexual couples, the better. They can adopt these unwanted kids and make them feel wanted. It's a win-win solution. And for those who are gonna say that the kids will grow up mal-adjusted, well, maybe once we stop making the word "homosexual" a bad thing, there won't be any such problems. It's the same as kids with only one mother or one father and their aunts or uncles help out regularly. As long as the situation is explained once the child is old enough to understand, and the child is given lots of love and attention, there is no reason for the child to be mal-adjusted.
If only I could write like this for GP, with more balance and more flair. Anyway, I welcome attacks on my semi-rant, I'll be happy to retaliate. =))
Teardrops
10:34 PM - Friday, September 18, 2009
I fucking lost control of my emotions today. Seesaw, up and down. Somehow I seemed to be on the losing end. Now you know why I need to put on more weight.
One minute I was high, ok but tired. Then I would think about stuff and I would drop really rapidly to low. Naturally not wanting the people around me to know that I'm brooding about stuff, I try to be happy and crazy, like my usual self.
Sorry folks, just couldn't do it. I tried. I really tried. Which is why I only broke down in the dark, when the lights were off. And I did it silently, and erased all traces, I hope.
I was definitely thinking about stuff during the "relaxation time" during Econs. Recovered by watching Ryan Higa (he's a freaking cute genius people), Yuesing now you know why I dragged you there. And then the stuff came back really strongly during opening ceremony, which is why I walked off on my own to PAC, couldn't stand human contact at the point in time. Then I tried to look like I was resting, like I was tired. Which I was, so not that hard there. But I suspect a few rogue tears escaped, I tried to hold them back, I suspect woman saw traces of it.
But definitely during the Wushu performance, I lost it. I couldn't hold back the floodgates anymore. Since it's in the dark, no one can see, and plus everyone was engrossed in that small cute boy doing Wushu (pedophiles all of you!), so perfect time. I let go of everything that I was holding back, but I suspect there's more to come, it's too raw, need to cry like a baby. Loudly and painfully, like I would give anything in the world to stop it.
After promos, I'll release it. Until then, I'll just have to keep it inside. Building up. Day by day.
Life is a mystery, you never know when things are gonna change or when things are gonna happen. I sure wish I could solve it. It's so hard not knowing.
I like to walk in the rain, because then no one can tell I'm crying.
Just a quick one. Really.
11:17 PM - Wednesday, September 16, 2009
HI WORLD. I'M BACK AFTER SO LONG.
haha, more like popping in and out again. Sigh. I've been busy with promos prep. More like I've been looking like I'm preparing for promos.. Tell you more why later. If I'm ready to..
In the meantime, I just go this few things to say:
1. Alicia Ho's coming back round the mountain when she comes! =D hahaha, random shizz..
2. I'M SO DEAD FOR PROMOS.
3.
I've too many uncles getting married.. NOOOO... =((
4. I'm meeting up with Chan Liwen, Annabel Koh, Jessalyn Chan and apparently more people on 2nd October =)))
One last thing before I go, I'm reaching my tolerance limit for someone, you can't abuse me like that without thinking that I won't retaliate. There's only so much my dignity can be chipped at. So there. Watch yourself.
BYE WORLD.
P.S. I've added a new widget, its the 3rd blue bar.
P.P.S I think Ellen Degeneres is so freaking funny and cool. And Portia's acting is brilliant!!
P.P.P.S I've been developing a theory on why lesbians are cool. Anyone wanna add their input? Without your own personal bias please!! Just think of it from a totally neutral point of view.. haha =D
P.P.P.P.S I may have CCN syndrome and OCD. -_-
P.P.P.P.P.S I really want a pair of Beats by Dr Dre headphones!! Or a Beats by Dr Dre Tour earphones. Or a Bang & Olufsen A8 earphones (orange!!)